My stay overnight went well but as I expected it was a very emotional time for me with lots of smiling but a few tears. A time of happiness at being home and a time of sadness at how that home time will be limited. It has been over 6 weeks since I was admitted to hospital and I have been in hospice for 4 weeks now. My home was so warm and inviting and to sleep in my own bed was heaven. I cried as I sat looking at our wonderful view of the mountains from our living room window. So many times since moving into our home I have said that I would never tire of looking at that view. I smiled as I saw all the loving care that Graham has put into keeping our home so spic and span and ready for me to come home. I laughed at myself as I went from room to room touching and holding our ornaments that we have collected over the years and that have such memories attached to them. A few tears fell as I realised that my priority is to spend as much time as possible in our home with Graham before I die but with that realization came the acceptance that days at home will be limited by the cancer. I had to admit that I am weaker than I thought as I struggled to find the strength to climb the stairs. I smiled as I ate Sunday breakfast at home with Graham and read the newspaper, savouring the moment. I smiled as we hugged in the kitchen while making breakfast. I smiled as I thought about our upcoming Christmas weekend at home. I smiled and anticipated Christmas eve dinner and playing charades with Paul, Mel and Abby. I cried as I left home and I sighed with exhaustion as I fell into bed at the hospice last night then fell fast asleep with a smile on my face. Now back to my book bucket list. Today my request is that everyone goes online to Chapters/Coles and searched for the Choosing to smile book. The more searches that their system gets the more chance we have of getting our book in all the Chapters/Coles stores across North America. Julie www.choosingtosmile.com