Had a little tantrum today
Graham woke up today with a very sore throat and the beginning of a cold. This threw me for loop. What were the odds that he would get sick this week, the week of my port surgery and first chemo. I knew he would not be able go with me into the chemo room if his sick and I panicked at the thought of him not being with me for the first treatment.  He is so seldom sick, why this week!!!! Poor Graham was feeling sick but also feeling very worried about passing the cold on to me. It didn’t help that I went into a bit of a dark mood for a couple of hours before I came to my senses and realized how selfish I was being. I apologized and made him some fresh ginger and lemon tea. We went for a walk by the river and then a drive down Chilliwack Lake road to look at the fall colours on the trees. The colours were spectacular.
I decided that I was not going to worry about getting a cold. All we could do is take care about hand washing and cleaning surfaces and whatever will be will be. I thought about our book title and chose to smile for the rest of the day. This helped me put it all in perspective and stop worrying.  I am sure it made it a bit easier for Graham to fight his cold.